In 4 1/2hours time, i will be celebrating my 21st b'dae @ Millions.. I shd b hapi & excited but i dun feel any.. I'm f***ing tired.. Been drinking, nvr have enough slp and working.. shag.. But still i looking for later on.. Shd b able to make me bz, occupied and go crazy.. Juz hope things dun go worst later.. anyway...
Hapi 21st B'dae to myself!!hope will be a happy one..
2009 hearing from Faith 27th entry
'L' is for the way you looked at me 'O' is for the only one I see 'V' is very very extraordinary 'E' is even more than anyone that you adore and Love is all that I can give to you Love is more than just a game for two Two in love can make it Take my heart and please don't break it Love was make for me and you
2009 hearing from Faith 26th entry
It's 0249hr, i'm so shag but i juz want to blog.. And i having to wake up slightly after 6 for sch at 8am.. haiz..
Juz came back awhile after a movie, Ghosts of Girlfriends Past.. To me, it's a pretty nice show.. It talks about a guy dat indeed like this girl, but chose to fool and play around juz not to get hurt.. But in the end still realise dat the feeling of love and being in love is great..
And in the movie i heard the song L.O.V.E. dat i din hear it for a long time, and it use to be and is still an very meaningful song to me..
And i'm still thinking, thinking & thinking.. hmmm...
And i feel kind of hard to communicate..
Or am i juz scared and afraid??
2009 hearing from Faith 25th entry
I'm kinda lost now.. I duno wat is the right or wrong thing to do le.. It's juz have to come wen i juz start to realise dat i dun even know how to stop it anymore.. hmm.. But overall it's still a happy thing, i guess.. Or atlease for now it is.. YEAH..
I need to take some time to really think about everything..
2009 hearing from Faith 24th entry
Yesterday, i woke up at 11+pm... Only slept for 5 hours lor.. Still very tired, but cant sleep le... Den in the end ended up Sky came to pick me up at 3+ and we went to Lot1, he cut & dye half of his hair, at the main time i go meet Silver and no.3 first.. Atfer he was done, we went to pick up her aunt and follow by 2 cousin and went over to his place.. Den Sky send me to work while he went to pick up Neo oso and they goin for movie.. From 9pm, i work till 5.30am almost 6am.. Was abit high lar.. Drank alot of beer the whole nite.. Joanna jie jie came to drink, nvr seen her for afew month le.. Exo oso came, thinking to find Bebe tinking dat she is working at Next Stop, but she still working at Blue Blazze, talk to him for quite awhile, he told me dat it's the fifth time he wants to brake up with her and it's suppose to be their one month anniversary but she over slept.. haix... Law and Richie they all where at Next Stop too... And at 3+am, Bebe came to look for me.. Was kind of sweet lar... She kiss me, she told me dat she broke up with Exo and ask me to wait for her, dat she will come to Next Stop to work and kiss me again b4 she left.. Haiya, i oso duno wat to say about her le... Wateva she wans lar.. I shd juz listen and forget about it, dun expect anything.. And den drink abit more and finally left Next Stop about 5.45am.. So tired now, goin to sleep.. Have to wake up at 11+ and it will be a damn long day... Really long long day... Nite!!
2009 hearing from Faith 23rd entry
Was at home the whole of Sat until just now afternoon den i went to my nanny's house to eat.. For the past 3-4 days, i simply am infront of my computer... MSN, fb, blog, watching my usual daily HK show and tons of movie..
I've watch TwilightMarley and Me
Bride WarsThe Chronicles of Narnia 1 & 2: The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe & Prince Caspian
InkheartBedtime Stories
The House BunnyIP Man
Dead Like Me: Life After Death
Mamma Mia!....
I guess dat's more or less about it.. I'm so so tired... Never really sleep.. haha....
2009 hearing from Faith 22nd entry
康康(康晋荣) -《你不愛我》
作詞：李焯雄 作曲：薛忠銘 編曲：洪敬堯
习惯被拒绝的人会先拒绝
这一次至少是我先说离别
有一些痛楚看不见泪水
有一种防卫叫做我无所谓
要让你快乐原是我的心愿
可是你从不在意我的伤悲
丢给我一些喜悦的碎屑
却带走我一切
你不爱我 是我舍不得
是我不配 为你在狼狈
你不爱我 你真的不爱我
尽力而为我拼命给也是浪费
你不爱我 是我舍不得
是我不配 和命运作对
你不爱我 你真的不爱我
一直以为我是后卫 原来只是那后备
要让你快乐原是我的心愿
可是你从不在意我的伤悲
丢给我一些喜悦的碎屑
却带走我一切
你不爱我 是我舍不得
是我不配 为你在狼狈
你不爱我 你真的不爱我
尽力而为我拼命给也是浪费
你不爱我 是我舍不得
是我不配 和命运作对
你不爱我 你真的不爱我
一直以为我是后卫 原来只是那后备
你不爱我 是我舍不得
是我不配 为你在狼狈
你不爱我 你真的不爱我
尽力而为我拼命给也是浪费
你不爱我 是我舍不得
是我不配 和命运作对
你不爱我 你真的不爱我
一直以为我是后卫 原来只是那后备
一直以为我是后卫 原来只是那后备
2009 hearing from Faith 21st entry
我才刚刚睡醒不久。我整个人都很不舒服。
昨晚，Bebe打电话给我，叫我陪她去Cine做指甲。她做到七七八八的时候Jannet就来了。然后，我们就去Pastamania吃。吃完以后我们就去了Boat Quay。她们要去Blue Blazze为了另一个姐妹在那里做工。之后还把我一个人留在那里。我喝了两三杯后就也不管了，去了一百万找勇明。去到那里我看见了勇明，国擎，慧彬，no.3，If和伟杰。不知为什么，我突然很没有心情。过了一下子，慧彬，If和伟杰就先走了，他们还要做工，要早起吧。我们就玩牌，也玩其他的游戏。我一直输，一直喝，一直喝，就喝了好几次杯的啤酒。之后勇明和国擎唱歌。我就和no.3在那里聊天。聊啊聊，说了很多东西，我情不自禁的流起眼泪来。咳！！
过后，Bebe来一百万找我。我和她们两姐妹和她们的两个朋友就去了X Bar，开Martell再喝。那时候，我有一点high，我竟然把我要发给no.3的短讯发了给Bebe。天啊！！我们喝到五点，还看到一班人在Rav打起架来。她们两个都人送她们回家。那我就自己去搭巴士。但是我越走我的肚子就越痛。那种痛真的痛到我无法形容。我才走过Bar Dot不远，都还没有到Jab1，我已经不行了，我就坐在附近的椅子。我还冒冷汗，也吐了。然后就走到巴士站，在等巴士当儿，我又吐了，幸好至少我的肚子已经不痛了。上了巴士后，我就休息。半小时之后我终于到家了，我进厕所又吐。大概七点多我就去睡了。但是十点，十一点多和十二点多的时候我都起来吐。真的是吐到没有东西了但还在吐。之后就睡到现在。我整身无力。肚子也觉得空空的，但又不想吃。真不知发生了什么事。咳！！
2009 hearing from Faith 20th entry
很多时候我还真的不明白。我不明白她，更加不明白自己。为什么我种是到了最后都和我喜欢的人做好朋友。难道我真的那么不讨人喜欢吗？
已经过了好几个月了，我们之间也发生了很多事。重刚刚认识她到现在，我们成为了好朋友，一切都得来不易，我为了她真的付出了很多很多。那当然，我重来也没有要求过或可望她会为我做任何的事。
其实我真的很开心她有事的时候，不管是好是坏，都会来告诉我或找我。我真的很想每时每刻都能够在她身边，陪着她，关心她，照顾她，让她开心。我看见她开心我就很满足了。
她的身边每次都有好多位男士。但我又能怎样呢？我又不是她的谁。。。有好多时候我还真的非常难过，好想离开，不想在看下去。但是我又舍不得她。做人真矛盾。咳！！
有些时候，她对我说了些我听了是会很开心的话。当然，我知道她都是在开玩笑，但我还是很开心。有时候，虽然她只是说会和我去这里去那里，做这个做那个，我听了还真的是开心的很。那种开心有时侯真的是无话可形容。但是最后，我只有一次又一次的失望。每一次我都会很气，但她知道吗？还有每次她在打电话给我的时候，我就气不下去了。我已经不应该有任何的期待。听到的话，开心过就好了。是不是真的有做到，我也不想再想了。
她总是让我担心。如果我在，就还能看着她。但我不在她身边的时候呢？有时候我一整晚都睡不着，就为了等她的一通电话，要知道她安全到家了，我才放心。如果真的等到了她的电话，有时都不知道要生气还是要开心。
好了。我真的好累了。我还能够坚持下去多久呢？
但是放不下就是放不下啊！！！ 我还能爱谁？？？
2009 hearing from Faith 19th entry
Yesterday 12+ i went down to Boat Quay.. I first went to Blue Blazze to talk to Bebe & Jannet.. At there, i was Law & Richie oso.. They were kind of shock to see Bebe so happy seeing me and came to sit on my lap.. After dat i walk over to Millions den to Chillz.. Today Chillz reopen after renovation.. Den i was chatting with Celestine & Emily..
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After that i went up to NOS to meet X they all... X goin back to work again, will oni get to see her 6months later.. In between, we went down to Millions to smoke and find Rain.. And i saw Sebestian.. And also HuiBin.. She called me earlier telling me dat she is drinking and will come find me later.. Then i was talking to Sebas while I saw someone drunk.. Was kind of shock, never expect to be so drunk.. So went to send the person home..hb was sitting down smoking so i was talking to Sebas, but wen i saw hb stand up and was unstable, i literally juz wen over to hb & left Sebas there.. She then hug on me, tell me somethings and say dat she wans to go home.. No matter wat i ask her, she oni ans dat she wans to go home.. Den some1 drove her back, of cuz i wen wit her.. Den reach her place, we took quite awhile to settle her and finally get her down the car.. Den i was on her left while the other fren on her right.. Den she let go of her fren and hold on to me.. The most best part was wen we got into the lift, she push the fren out and close the door.. lolx.. Even i was shock, dun talk abt the fren.. Den i send her home, she lock the door and i left.. I'm still so worried.. Although she is home, but i din see her get into bed.. Hmmm...
After dat i came back to Boat Quay and found Sky & Neo @ Millions.. Bernice oso there with her bf and frens... Den i oso went back to NOS to drink with X.. At 4+, X they all left, den Sky oso send Neo, Pam & me home.. Pam oso very high le.. Haiya.. Wat a day, everyone drinking so much.. Sigh..Juz now starting from 7am, i started giving her morning call.. All the way until 7.47am, every min, i give her a call.. Total 48miss call but she still haven't din pick.. In the begining wen i start calling, i juz wan to wake her up.. Usually she will wake up within 5 call.. After dat i rmb dat ytd wen i send her home, i saw her phone already left with no much batt.. I oso tinking if she has her phone near her.. Haiz.. And now I can't sleep.. WOW!! After dat i even feel like scolding her if she picks up the phone.. How can she drink until so drunk.. Somemore goin to work today.. And she go drinking, get drunk with i dun even know who, not THE GANG.. If not i came down to smoke, i dun even know dat she is drunk until like dat le.. F*** sia.. She herself know how to ask me not to drink so much with others, unless is with The Gang.. But now wat i see.. Haiz.. I'm kind of waiting for her to call me.. Still worried.. And i dun wan to miss her call.. Will she call??????
2009 hearing from Faith 18th entry
On Saturday, afternoon, I went to Jason's place first.. After that together with If's buddy, Vincent, we went to If's place... If wanted me to go with her for some dinner on the 19 Apr and wanted to dress me up.. Oh my.... So we also went to Bugis to get some stuff.. After dat they drove me to my nanny's place... Went there to settle my sch fee and some stuff with my nanny's son.. Haix.. School.... While i was still there, hb called.. She wanted to go bq, but ended up meeting her bf.. And i was trying so hard talking to her not using words like 'knn', 'cb', 'nb, 'f***'... Even she also realise dat i was trying so hard... lolx...
So ended up i goin to bq myself... So i went to Blue Blazze to find Bebe & Jannet.. Drinking halfway, Jem & Don came to finish up their bottle... Dat nite, Bebe also introduce me her new bf, they are together for 12days and know each other for 12days.. WOW!! After they end work, we went to Dolphin and den to Millions too.. Before Bebe left, she hug and kiss me in front of the bf.. WTF!! The whole nite her bf were saying dat it's okie for her to hug me, as long as it's gal, he is fine with it.. I dun get it.. Back at Millions, Jannet was high le.. Don and her were kissing down there lar.. OMG!! And also, Jannet was up sad over Bebe.. Haiz.. And Don, Dan Dan & Jem were trying to talk to her, she even got her asthma attach.. And we wented up leaving Millions at 7 in the morning... tired.....
On Sunday, I went to Simei, East Point, Banquet, to find hb for dinner... All the stall aunties kept asking if we are sister.. Do we even look alike... Anyway, they guess hb is elder sis.. haha... Fine, she is still older dan me... Den i went back with my Sis & Mum as they were at my Grandma's place at Simei.. Wen i juz got home.. Bebe called, asking me to go Blue Blazze, the bf ask me to go down.. So weird... I still went down.. We drink and play games still 3 den wen to her bf's fren's house.. Over there we play card again.. Den loser forfeit.. First round the bf lose.. We ask him to kiss the fren.. Den i lose and the bf ask Bebe to kiss me.. Weird boyfriend... Den come to the sleeping part.. There were oni 2 single bed.. One belong to the fren's sis which we cannot touch, so the fren sleep on it.. So Bebe, the bf and me left with one single bed... At first we were like trying to fit 3 of us on it.. Bebe in the center and the bf say it's up to her to hug the one on the left or right to sleep.. Anyway, it's really uncomfortable.. So i decided to juz sit on the chair.. Den the bf woke up and ask me sleep on the bed while he went to sleep on the floor..... hmmm...... I still dun get the bf....
On Monday.. So we woke up in the evening.. They went back to prepare for work later... And oh yea, the fren's place was at Simei... So i went to look for hb for dinner again.... And den i went home first to change and den i meet hb at Millions to drink... lim ah.... I reach home, check on the movie, oni got 4time slot, but hb say to be confirm..
On Tuesday.. hb's off day.. Wanted to meet hb to watch My Bloody Valentine 3D.. But she was doin somethings for the bf.. In the end was whole day at home...looking at the time past, all the way until 2130, where the last show of the day start.. And she still din contact me.. All the way until fri, after 70hours den she msg me ask me to call her...
Yesterday went down to Millions to meet The Gang.. Sun Hao, Tammie, Sky & Neo were there, Pam was working.. We sing, eat, play cards, drink & drink & more drink.... Oh yea, and we were crazily taking photos... Thankz to Neo and his crazy idea... hb suppose to come.. but she stay in the office to finish up her work till like 2am.. miss her..
See, we are juz a bunch of crazy people... All the photo the anger was juz rite.. Wahahaha... It's juz the anger, none of us really kiss each other, so dun tink other wise.. And i simply juz love every single of them.. lolx..
2009 hearing from Faith 16th entry
Yesterday i was very sian.. So no mood.. Whole day at home.. Oni until at nite hb called, she wanted to go drink.. Den i went to Simei East Point to wait for hb and wen down to Millions to drink.. We wanted to drink 1jug and take the last train back.. haha.. But in the end hb left first.. On the way to Millions, hb even off her phone, so dat she dun need to entertain other guys.. But drinking halfway, one still appear.. Sian.. Turn off again.. Den hb even left wit another customer cuz dun wan dat guy to send her back..
Den Jax was around, we went to Blue Blazze to drink a jug and den to Dolphin to drink another jug.. Den Jax saw a fren and we join him and finish a bottle of Martell.. After dat high sia.. Oh yea, and hb even gave me $10 to take cab home.. And later on she msg me saying "darlin.. so sorry.." After knowing her 7months 1hr, dis i the first time she msg me darlin.. and hb say SORRY leh... so not her..
2oo9 hearing from Faith 15th entry
On Mon, the whole day was at Tim's place with Junior & Lee Yan while Bridget went to school.. Den Bridget came very late.. At almost midnight, i went over to Tammie's new home and we walk over to AMK central to eat supper... Den oso went over to her place to chat for awhile.. Den i walk back to Tim's place..
Yesterday, hb's off day.. But she went to court in the afternoon due to something at work.. After dat she called me, ask me to eat with her, so i ask her to come to AMK.. At first she complaining that it's so far, but in the end she still came.. lolx... Den a fren of hers came to join us later on oso.. After dat we 3 went to AMK Hub to watch movie, Watchman.. The show is f***ing 2Hours 40Mins.. It's so so boring.. Watch halfway already feel like leaving.. After dat found out dat hb oso tink dat the show is so bored.. Should left much earlier.. After dat we all went home... During the show, abt an hr, i saw dat guy hold her hand & den even hug her.. Dat fucking guy is not even cute lar.. fucking hell... I actually dun even noe wat the show says anymore.. I totally turn off, shut down.. Simply no words can explain how i feel anymore.. I even felt dat my tears r dropping anytime.. I'm not even watching a sad show lor.. After the show i muz still act like nothing happens.. Haix.. So fuck up.. Can burst anytime..
Below some photo taken at Tim's place..
2009 hearing from Faith 14th entry
Yesturday, I actually ask hb to wake me up wen she ends work, but 4+ she already call me.. She dun seems to be in the mood, and so i'm meeting her at Bugis @ 8pm den maybe goin to bq.. Den i was still at Tim's place, so we went to buy food to eat first.. After dat i left and wen home to shower and change.. Den i pack a bag of clothes and went back to Tim's place, i drop it there and went to meet hb.. We smoke and den went to Bugis Jumction, the basement, to get some food.. At there, hb was holding me hand, den she ask, wat if Bebe saw her holding my hand.. I look at her and i let go of my hand, i told her dis is wat i will do... lolx...
Den we walk to bq, Millions, meet Sky there at 10pm to drink.. We drink, sing and smoke the whole nite.. We had 2buckets of Asahi.. Oh yea, Audrey and Wilson drop by too and we played Chinaman.. After dat i went over to Tim's place..
2009 hearing from Faith 13th entry
Yesturday was the closing party for PLAY.. They are goin to renovate and reopen in April.. Before i went to meet dem, the whole day i was at home.. Until 8+ den they told me to meet at 9.15pm outside Play.. But b4 i left, hb online.. In the end chat with her till 9+, she even wan me to eat wit her, but too far & i'm reli late.. I ask her go Maxwell eat oso dun wan.. How i wish i can meet her..
But b4 i go to Play, on the way, i drop at Clark Quay, wen to Blue Blazze to smoke wit Bebe first.. Den i took a bus to Play.. At Play we were all first had a bottle of Vodka, den we were dancing all nite, we all so crazy.. Oh yea, got to know a gal.. At first was at a corner of the club alone while all very to get drink and smoke.. And the girl was oso there alone, with some fren around the area.. Den later on when my frens came back, we went up the stage to dance and the same girl with her frens oso came to the stage to dance.. haha... And almost all of us got the Play t-shirt..
After clubbing, we walk to Clark Quay Mac, but the whole place was full... In the end we all walk until Orchard dat Mac, so tired.. We eat until morning den we took train and i wen to Tim's place... Den i msg hb, ask her to wake up.. But suddenly i scared dat i have been contact her too much dat she will avoid me or something again.. I'm not goin to let dat happen again.. Tell i told her dat i found out dat Bebe got bf again, and ytd, even though i was late, i still very to smoke with Bebe first..
Here are some photo of us @ PLAY..
And she said dat i bcuz of cb.. anything can be done.. ask me go company her eat cannot.. Wah, i saw dat msg, i feel so hot lor.. I immedially reply her a msg, in 5mins, i send another one... Den she reply saying okay lah, asking me not to be angry..
I purposely woke up at 2-3pm, wanted to go down East Point to see 羅志祥 wit hb.. But i msg her & she nvr reply until almost 7pm..
I woke up and saw Audrey's msg, saying to meet at Hereen at 6.30pm to watch Neo singing for a competition in the semi-final.. I went down, Neo, Neo's friend, Sky, Audrey and a new fren Leon was there.. And juz nice, it's Neo's turn.. There were a total of 16 of them, 8 r goin in to the final and NEO IS INTO THE FINAL.. wohoo!! haha... Anyway, while waiting for the result, Sky, Audrey, Leon & me went over to cine to play 1hr of Left4Dead, halfway, HuiBin came.. After the result, we all went to Bugis to eat steamboat.. Unlimited Food and Drinks, yeah!! We were all so so the very hungry, already 10+ lor.. We juz simply took all the food, and dump all into the pot.. wahahaha... But din really eat alot until very full lar, mayb already over hungry..
THE Gang!!
After dat, HuiBin left as she forget to bring her key and she's working in the morning.. The rest of us suppose to go for our intoxication @ dbl o, but in the end we juz wan to L4D.. We went all out hunting for place to play.. We first went to Meridien to River Valley to Selegie and den back to Meridien.. We finally gave up, everywhere were juz too packed.. Haiz.. We were like saying 'for once, 有钱没地方花!!' lolx....
Den Audrey & Leon went home sweet home.. Sky, Neo & me notice that there was an accident & jam along the way where we go home.. As having to stuck in the jam, we rather go Millions have a drink.. We went down and saw Portia there.. :) It's been quite awhile since i last saw her.. I over went over to Blue Blazze to find Bebe.. Saw dat she were quite high and she seem unhappy, like have some quarrel with some guy or something.. Sigh.. Den she gave me a hug, ask me to go back Millions first, she will call me after she end work.. So i went back.. But for the whole of next one hour plus, i simply waiting and looking at my phone every few mins and making sure dat my phone got reception.. Den we were leaving and she still din call.. So i called, but oni get to some words and she hang up.. Din ever noe wat she talking.. Wow!! So i called the sis, Jannet to found out that they are goin to eat with some of their customer and den goin home.. Haiz.. wat can i say.. FINE!! At 7+ i gave hb morning call, cuz i saw dat she was on fb at 2+.. Juz making sure dat she wakes up.. b4 i slp at 8+ i can still msg her saying 'gdmorning!! nitey nite.. *yawn yawn* Zzzzz....' lolx.. :)
2009 hearing from Faith 11th entry
I finally got into Ngee Ann Polytechnic, Accountancy.. I kind of not having much feeling about it.. hmmm... I'm abit scared and worried lar, didn't study for one whole year le.. And i know many of my friends were all in Ngee Ann, they got in last year.. I'm going to get to see them again, everyday.. Other than that i really don't know leh.. haiz... Time to start thinking... But what to think about?? hb was first & oni person i kol & told, but she was wit bf, tok awhile den hang up le.. She say wil kol me back, but she din.. Asusual lar..
2009 hearing from Faith 10th entry
Yesterday i finally went out of my house... I didn't go out since i reach home on Sunday morning.. Was all the way rotting at home.. haha.. I woke up at like 5pm (hehe) as i was just sitting infront of my computer, Hui Bin called and ask me to go drink and meeting 8pm at Millions.. Rain & Pam drank alot, both were quite high le.. Eric's cousin asking if hb & me r tgt, I oni can say dat she got bf.. But she ask dat i like her rite.. Haiya.. Actually Eric & cousin was the first group i know in Millions, oso bcuz of hb..
In the end i was still like abit.. wahaha.. So we 2 had a jug at Millions.. Eric & his cousin was also there, so long didn't see them.. At about 10pm, Bin & me went over to 10th Dimension.. At 11pm she left.. Then i went back to Millions to join Eric they all.. Then i waited for Pam & Rain to end work and we went over to Jet1, then Stacey also came along.. Oh yea, and i saw Vicki outside Beer Belly, she just put on a tatoo on her left arm few days ago.. Quite a big one, but only got outline for now, haven't put on colour.. Hmmm... Anyway, we drank until almost 5am then share a cab back.. And yea, now my leg got 3 red dot... hb pinch really pain sia... First one was at Millions wen i took up 2seats & dun let her sit @ Eric's table.. Other 2 was at 10th Dimension.. So pain sia...
Now am so tired, time to sleep.. Later still have to check my Poly application result.. hmmm...
2009 hearing from Faith 9th entry
閻韋伶 - 傻孩子
作曲：宋世堯 填詞：宋世堯 編曲：涂惠源.黃洋 監製：涂惠源
看著你無暇的表情 我猜不透真實你的心
我一直冷靜卻還是走不出這秘密 好孤寂
我開始失去了勇氣 而你卻好像在遊戲
我假裝清醒看清你的心 終於我選擇了離去
你像個孩子一樣的被我看穿 在你面前我試著隱瞞
所有過去全都變成傷害
我像個傻子一樣的被你出賣 一字一句都要我承擔
到了最後 我選擇 分開
我開始失去了勇氣 而你卻好像在遊戲
我假裝清醒看清你的心 終於我選擇了離去
你像個孩子一樣的被我看穿 在你面前我試著隱瞞
所有過去全都變成傷害
我像個傻子一樣的被你出賣 一字一句都要我承擔
到了最後 我選擇 分開
你像個孩子一樣的被我看穿 在你面前我試著隱瞞
我在之前就已经看过了好几次，但是我刚才看的时候，我听着她说 '但我不会后悔 我曾经喜欢过你 我爱你'，还有她唱的时候的歌词，我哭了。突然间我想了很多东西。我知道 我也不会后悔 我喜欢过你，但我直到现在 我还是爱你的。放不下就是放不下。我又能怎样呢？
2009 hearing from Faith 8th entry
Yesterday nite i went to Causeway Point to get something.. After dat Tammie called, wanted to go out, but got no where to go to... Then I called Hui Bin, but she din want to go out as it was raining and she is working in the morning... Instead she say go to her place to relax or drink if we wan to... In the end, Tammie decided to stay home to pack her thing as she is moving house next week.. And I went over to hb's house at almost 2300.. At Eunos, i got me dinner & whole bottle of green tea and hb came to pick me up as it was still raining.. At her house, we watch tv.. And she eat my dinner.. Thankz lor... She told me dat she has eaten her dinner, ask me go get mine.. Den oni reaching her place den she say dat she's hungry.. wth.. haha.. I was there until almost 0300, her mum came out afew time, asking her to go sleep, later tmr cannot wake up for work.. And even ask me to go home so dat hb can sleep... So pai seh lor... I'm so hapi dat i found the ring.. hehe.. like finally.. And she saw me wearing.. And i finally met her after 7 days, but i'm missing her again.. : )
After dat, i went down to bq to meet my other frens at Amber 21... Den i oso wen over to Millions, Aud & Pam were working... At Amber, we drink still 0600, den wen to McDonald to eat b4 we went home.. Was so so tired...
2009 hearing from Faith 7th entry
I first time went to Play on their Ladies Nite.. Finally I saw alot of girls, not all guys.. lolx... I thought it will be much more fun.. But Timothy, Leeyan, Wilson they all are not use to it, they were like quite bored.. So it wasn't so happening.. The song were mostly Hip Hop and R & B, they say is not their type of song.. Haiz... But i still did dance with some people over there, hehe..At the end of the day, my leg was so tired... And i saw an ex schoolmate, but don't really know her actually, so also didn't talk to her.. Back at AMK, Timothy found out that he lost his wallet.. It's a LV wallet lor.. wah lao... at many point of time, how i wish hb is there with me, dancing.. B4 going home, i got such a bad urge, wanting to msg her dat i miss her so badly.. haiz... But was hapi dat she say nite to me online the moment i got home.. : )
2009 hearing from Faith 6th entry
Woke up in afternoon & saw HB's status in fb.. She is so pissed, i thought wat happened sia.. I msg her & she ask me to ask Sky, wat they do.. Den found out from Sky dat he & Aud disturb her after hearing things from Pam, but they din noe dat she is not in the mood..
Today was a boring day.. Whole day was at Timothy house.. Using computer, MSN, fb, watch show as usual... At night actually goin down to Boat Quay, Timothy, Bridget and i go accompany Leeyan (Timothy's sis) , but in the end abit too late, and also dunno wat to do the whole nite so din go down, no transport sian.. Jax also called me go Millions accompany him, saying Liyan (Millions' waitress) say she miss me oso.. lolx... So that's why now still at Timothy's house and blogging.. Hmmm... So sian lor.. Wat to do for the nite and tmr sia?? And at almost 2200, juz b4 HB end work, she call me to ask me chat on fb.. I know wateva she said is juz kidding, but i still juz can't believe wat we kidding about.. And i reli miss her, sooooooo loonnngggg never c her le....
2009 hearing from Faith 5th entry
Yesterday I actually went to sleep at 0330 lor, but until almost 0500 den i fall asleep.. I suppose to give Hui Bin morning call at 0630, but i woke up at 0700 and realise dat i miss my alarm clock.. Wahaha.. Den i message Hui Bin and know dat she is already having her coffee and ask me go back sleep ah..
0800 I woke up, head to National Dental Centre, Outram Park, for my dental appointment, but i was late, reach there at 0950.. Today, he ask me to go take another X-Ray.. While taking the X-Ray, i forgot to take out my tragus and my right ear earring... lolx... Was so blurr... Oni took out 2 of my earrings.. After the X-Ray, i wen back to look for my dentist, on his com, i saw my X-Ray.. Wahahaha... And i finish my appointment around 1100..
I was suppose to meet Timothy at 1030, so i quickly called him, he told me dat he is juz leaving his place.. Knowing him, i know he wil take awhile, so i walk over to Chinatown, People's Park Centre, to drop by to see my Mum working... Den i took a bus to Orchard and wait for Timothy.. I waited and waited, from not even 1200noon till almost 1300 and he still not reach yet.. Den i wen over to Far East first to walk walk.. Den i wen down to Level 1 to look for Hui Chen and talk to her while still waiting for Timothy... Finally at 0200+ he came.. So goin to almost killed him lor... Den we wen to eat and wen over to Hereen to look for Liyan as she having her break.. We accompany her to eat at Cine After dat I accompany Timothy to Plaza Sing to meet his fren, Jonathan.. At Far East, I wen to Craft to look for the ring, but no more.. I seach the whole Far East but still can't find.. At Hereen, Dhoby Ghoat, i oso keep a look out.. Den i even wen to Bugis earlier, walk the whole of Bugis Street and Bugis Junction still can't find.. Damn sad..
Den i went to Bugis to meet Aud, Sky, Pam, Ah Cai for Steamboat at 1830... Den Neo came to join us half way.. And Hui Bin, Sun Hao & Tammie can't make it.... After eating, they all wen to play Left4Dead and i wen to AMK to meet Timothy and stay over at his place.. While on the way to AMK, HB called.. Talk to her for quite awhile, even after meeting Timothy still talking.. She suppose to come for the Steamboat one lor, but bcuz of some things happen, she din came..
X-Ray of my teeth.. and my earrings..
and oso bcuz of dat, i accompany over the phone.. But handphone bill ex ah, so after dat hang up.. But i msg her saying if she got anytg juz miss call me & i wil call back.. She reply thkx so much.. So not use to her being so polite..
8am woke up gave HB morning call..
At 11+am i woke up.. Went to meet Jason at Kovan MRT to go rent car with him.. While waiting for him, I saw my sister, Sylvia.. And it's was she birthday.. Hapi B'day to her again.. Den meet Jason and wen to Turf City to get the car and pick If and her dog and wen for lunch at Harbour Front.. Wanted to go to Sentosa, but was raining.. In the end went to Jason's house to sleep.. Juz at reaching Jason's hse.. @ 1640, HB called during her smoking break, complaining to me about her 1st dae on her job.. haha...
At 8+pm, Jason came to wake If & me up.. Den we went to Bishan to pick Vincent up.. Den we went to send If's dog back, den went to Vincent's house as he has to feet his new baby and baby number one, his parrots.. Den we went to eat McDonald and we wen home.. Am quite tired, and tmr morning has to wake up for Dental appointment at 0930.. Sleep sleep.. Zzzzz.......... @ 0047, juz aft sending Vincent back, HB call again.. Told me abt dinner tmr & ask me to give her morning call at 0630.. & oso talk abt the ring, i told her dat she juz simply wan me to get a new one, and she agree.. Wil get to c her tmr.. Miss her..
2009 hearing from Faith 3rd entry
I'm still coughing badly... Can't really sleep for many nights le... Haiz... Thought that not drinking and smoking so much will be better, but it seems like it doesn't work.. What else can i do... Hmmm...
I missing hb.. Wen wil i get to see her.. hmmm.. Miss e way she hold my hand ytd & oso she's lying on me & i hug her ytd.. Although it's bcuz DragonFly got many pple, I was juz tring to pull her back as pple wan to walk pass, but... the feeling was there..
After I woke up, I whole day was at home using computer, watching show... Only at 9+ then If ask me to go Yishun to find Jason.. At 10pm I met Jason and Vincent was there.. Interestingly, Jason didn't know that i'm going to meet him.. I also duno wat is happening between dem.. Haiya... After that went to Jason's house first, he shower, eat, they played game for awhile dem we went to Woodland, Vincent's house there to lim kopi and If came to join us... I reli duno wat happened, but juz feel that somehow Jason and Vincent felt disappointed with If.. I felt weird over there... Anyway, slightly after 2am, Vincent went home, and Jason sent If follow by me home..
And juz as i type finish, at 0348, hb called.. She told me dat she can't sleep.. She oso tell me dat she met nbcb juz now & wat they talk abt.. I'm feeling so Sky suddenly... hmmm... And i'm giving her morning call at 0800.. Die die muz wake her up..
2009 hearing from Faith 2nd entry
放不下就是放不下2dae is her last day @ Millions.. Start from Mon, she wil b starting her day job at Banquet.. While on the way to DragonFly on Pual's car wit Audrey, we 2 were sitting behind... She hold my hand twice.. But both times wen Pual or Audrey look to the back, she let go of my hand...
@ Clark Quay Mac.. Photo of us sleeping...
I mean there is nothing dat i can say... I simply juz miss her, somehow... And wil miss her more.. I know i wil get to c her lesser.. I MISS YOU!!!
On Friday, I wen to meet Timothy, Junior, Bridget, Liyan, and some new fren, Wilson, Zen and others at Play.... From 2130, we drink and dance all the way till 3am... Was really tired.. But was reli fun and very high.. It's nice to get to know dem... After dat we walk over to Clark Quay, at the Singapore River, we slack for while, some of dem did some pole dance.. Den we went to the McDonald to eat and drink and relax till 0600 den took a bus home... By the time i reach home was reli shag.... And sleep....
Today, I meet Sun Hao, Sky and Neo at Millions... Neo brought some new fren... They r quite fun pple oso lar, juz dat they dun drink as crazy as us... lolx.... And i shd be goin to Play dis coming Thur wit den... Finally a Thur at Play.. Ladies Nite... And today is HuiBin last day at Millions.... Everybody wans her drank.. Even Jeremy... But in the end she din get drank.. But she reli drank alot... We played ChinaMan, we set a rule saying, anybody in the game drinks, she will have to drink double... wahahaha... Dat's my idea actually... hehe.. Den at 3+, Pual came to pick Audrey, HB and me and wen to Dragon Fly.. Was reli tired... And i'm still sick... It's already 2weeks lor... Haiz.... But we din drank much over there... And we left at 5+.. Oh yea, and a guy says dat I'm cute, and keep drinking with me.. I juz can't understand guys... haha... and Audrey & HB were there laughing and laughing.. haha..
Kkies, I'm reli tired... Gdnite, time to sleep.. :)
And she took my ring again.. She say will give me back if she's not drank.. Cuz it's her last say, every1 wans to make her get drunk.. I told her dat if can reli make her drunk, i dun mind spending $14 to get the ring again.. And interestingly, her reply is "Wow, den we will have a couple ring.." Haiz.. Reali duno wat she is tinking sometime... Hmmm.... But she din get drunk, but oso nvr give me back my ring...
2009 hearing from Faith 1st entry
I already never go to EnYouth.. I got a new job as a waitress at a restaurant along Circular Road, at Boat Quay, Gyoza no Ohsho.. At there I got to know my bros William Giant, Gavin & Benny and also Janice, Kelly and also others that work at Cuppage..
Started to know all the pub people, the boss, waitresses as I have to deliver food over sometime at night... So I was working at Boat Quay, drinking at Boat Quay... And on 11/8 @ 11+pm, I got to know HuiBin outside Millions..
Now I reach Boat Quay in the morning to work, either work straight till evening or have a break and work till nite... After work, will drink until after midnight then go home and repeat the same thing again... And it's also my birthday, wanted to celebrate it at Millions, but was also Vincent's birthday.. So i had it at The Next Stop.. My bros at work, EY people, Church frens and some drinking frens came.. I was so so drunk that night, but can still remember quite abit of what happened that night.. Thankz for those that took care of me.. And i got to Know Jac.. 10/9 Can't believe I kissed HB infront of everyone.. 25/9 Bought flower for HB 26/9 HB rejected me, I cried until i fall asleep..
I quited working at Gyoza no Ohsho, anyway few days later they close down.. But not the one at Cuppage.. And i have broke a record of 28 continuous night at Boat Quay drinking from 15/9 - 12/10.. Guess I can never brake my this record le... And I was very close to Jac, and we got together.. (can say so lar) HB use Jason to force me away, the more I care about her, the further she is from me.. That why I finally let go.. And also we had a very bad misunderstanding..
I went to Sandra mummy's Wedding at Malaysia, Kluang.. Went I came back, Jac told me everything was too late... She told me that she has a different feeling for RL than me.. And if me & RL will still be friend and also her... I was very very emo.. Thought such things only happen in shows, never thought that it will happen to me.. It really hurt when she is my very very extremely good friend.. But i'm really happy for them.. And also thankz to people who accompany me that time.. Really thankz alot...
Day and Night meeting up with The Gang, Hui Bin, Audrey, Pamela, Sky, Neo and also Tammie, Sun Hao, Jason, If, Portia, Nick.. Went out for movie, pool, bowling, singing, drinking, steamboat-ing, suntanning, arcade-ing and many many more.... We everyday drink, drank, drunk...... We spent our Christmas, New Year and Chinese New Year all together... And i fall back to Hui Bin, but we were a better friend now.. Even more after we quarrel, coz she feels dat i have fall back on her.. But i made her believe dat i now like somebody else... Sorry dat i lie to U..
The gang is meeting up lesser and lesser.. Maybe because we all didn't want to drink so much.. And all starts to have a new lift.. Audrey started with her new day job, Hui Bin going to start on her day job also.. Sky and Neo busy with school work.. Me also applied for Poly, going back to study.. Wow!! And also it's Valentine, V'day.. Was extremely emo on that day, but other than that, it wasn't that bad lar... And i also met up with Ivinn for a paintball session & follow by BBQ, then also Justina and Marcus for prawning and also Timothy, just to chill and going to Play tomorrow... And I believe more to come... Meet up with everyone soon... Now even seems closer with HB, she not hapi or got anything, she will call me.. 10/2 wen ECP wit her, piggy back her up the underpass.. 11/2 we walk from Bugis to BQ den back to Bugis & all the way to Eunos her house, 2.5hrs @ 3.30am.. I reli love her, but i can't let her noe..
