Loser!!

2010 hearing from Faith 18th entry

I tink i sucha loser.
I'm playful, but can't b a player.
I can't get the one i love.
I wanna to b into a r/s but ended up i flirt.
I dun like to feel emo.
I wanna to make u happy, but i'm getting more sad.
I dun wanna b alone.
I can't get u now, i will go for others first.
I can't get anyone.
I flirt but ended up still me getting hurt.
FML!!

Can't wait for mornig!!!

2010 Hearing from Faith 17th entry

Tue, Check In, HuiBin..
Chill, Chat, Drink, Eat & Smoke..
Memories came back!!
Miss Millions, Miss those happening & CRAZY days..
Miss Singing & drink drank drunk..

Thur, L nite, Play..
Drink, Smoke, Dance, Hug, Kiss.. And Quarrel & Fight ..
Dat's wat we see every week at Play..
Drama mama..

And now i'm waiting for morning..
To Malaysia, Malacca wit Buddy Charlie & me..
Fun!!
Eat all the food,
Smoke all i wan,
Relax & chill all i can..

Sick but Peaceful Week..

2010 Hearing from Faith 16th entry

I had a very bad stomach/gastric/wateva pain since Sat all the way to wed den i feel much much better, it keeps coming back on and off and it's can be really very painful.. I was so in pain on Sat dat i simply whole day rolling on my bed and juz slp so dat i can dun feel the pain, OMG.. next few days was better, but on and off it still comes back.. Duno wat's wrong.. Izzit bcuz i drink too much?? Or suddenly got gastric?? Something is wrong wit my body, but who care.. haha.. As long as no more pain now..

On Wed, i finally wen to cut my hair.. 2months le sia.. So long & messy.. Now is neat and handsome.. haha =D After dat head to Grapevine to meet JingXian & Ron for dinner.. It's been so long since i meet JingXian and update her.. She make me go all the way back to 2years ago, after HuiBin and start updating her.. OMG, having a hard time, 2years leh.. haha.. And she still dun like HuiBin, she still rmb dat i scolded her cb 3times on my 20th b'dae after i was drunk, partly bcuz of HuiBin.. lolx...

On Thur, it's Herstory again @Butter.. Wanted to go Play, but Jiselle having Femme Quest preview, we all go support her.. Overall, Butter dat day wasn't dat bad lar.. After club, Charlie and me wen to BQ, Thai Smile Cafe to eat Tom Yum Soup.. Shiok!! Wooo....

On Fri, Sheesha again.. Dis time wit Charlie, Ruu, Keith, CJae, Jet & SJ.. Nice time spent..

Ytd, i wen to Brendan's chalet at Aloha Loyang at abt 6+pm, Kit and Chong Hao came, oso saw some Xinmin junior.. I stayed til 10+ den head to Le Bar 2 for Vanessa's 20 B'dae.. She still as pretty as ever.. keke.. Sky, Jason & Neo came oso.. Saw Vaness too.. After dat tink she abit high le lar.. I was sitting down, and she came to hug me from the back, saying dat she's so sorry dat she din accompany her much as she was other frens around.. Den she goes on wit saying dat my new hair style suits me, i'm getting more handsome, wat if she falls for me.. I disturb her back, say dat she is st8 wat, but i will wait lor.. lolx.. hahaha.. But was a great nite too.. Very long nvr chill out wit 三位蔡先生.. I miss MILLIONS!! I miss those days..
Indeed i was flattered by Vanessa lar.. haha.. And another OMG, i juz found out dat Vanessa and Vaness are real sister..

FUCK OFF!!

2010 Hearing from Faith 15th entry

On Mon, Keith they all plan a surpise B'dae party for Shu Juan.. Keith, CJae & Jet were at East Coast since 5, i reach at abt 8pm, the funniest thing was wen i reach, oni Jet was there alone.. And dat was bcuz they forget to bring the whole trey of Chicken Wings and the B'dae cake.. lolx.. And best was, CJae took Keith's hse key to go back to her own hse, ended up have to wait for her parents to come back.. lolx..

Abt 10+, the B'dae Gal were brought here by some of her frens randomly, but she already suspected.. Sianx.. keke.. Den she wen to change, and next thing she know, she's in the sea.. hahaha... We juz, eat, chill, drink, smoke and relax till 12mn.. And cake cutting time.. Wat's Next?? Throw SJ into the sea again.. Jet throw her in, so she oso wet.. Follow by Keith and CJae.. Who's next?? OMG, they chase after me!! I surrender.. lolx.. Pass all my thing to SJ, and they carry me and threw me into the sea.. So wet and cold.. Den there was dis guy, Keith pour Orange syrup on him.. lolx.. And her pour the whole ice box ice water on us.. I ganna my whole back.. So cold.. Charlie oni came at 1+ and we chill to morning and see sun rise.. We oso took alot of photos and video.. Wat a crazy nite.. =D

On Tue, i meet Kelly, Mad & T for Dim Sum at Geylang, Mongkok Dim Sum.. We have been craving for it.. And it's so called Mad's b'dae dinner.. After dat, we head to Bugis for Sheesha and wen talk to Odeon Towers, and chilled at Mac till almost 4am..
Can c dat K&T haf bn contacting.. T shdn't b here 2day, it seems like a plan..
On Wed, Keith ask me out.. I wen to PS to meet her and SJ.. Den wen to Bugis to walk walk, eat desert and chill at Mac... Had a great talk wit Keith oso..
T text me twice, but i din reply.. Den K text.. Now wat?? Go report lar!!
Thankx Keith!! Den reply T, she dun c dat she did anything wrong.. Say y am i harsh on her?? WTF!!! Wat a 'good' fren..
On Thur, i meet Charlie first.. We wen to Chinatown to eat Chicken Rice.. Nice!! =D Den we head over to Maxwell, i wanna get drunk!! Dat's the plan for the nite.. And Charlie suppose to ask me a question.. Who do i love.. but too many things happened, she herself oso high..

I was indeed drunk.. I rmb Ruu ask me to wake up and so in Play, was already almost 2.30am.. So i juz wake up and cross the road and wen to Play, but instead, Charlie, Ruu & Dolly din go in at all.. lolx.. Kelly came wit T, i dun wanna c T!! Wei Lun & Baoyi were here oso.. So complicated..
Talking abt me goin in Play.. KNN CCB.. There was dis PB dat came to dance wit me and molest me.. Lucky i was still sober enough to react and Prawn saved me.. Thank God!! K is dating wit T le.. I din lose to her.. I juz lost to myself.. I choose ppl, ppl choose me.. I chose D first, it's all my fault..
After Play, i wen to find Charlie.. I was still so high, i was lying on the ground.. Den Trisha came over say she wan to talk to me.. I said no.. She say "Faith, i wan to talk to u.." I said no!! She den say again " Faith, I wanna talk to you!!" I shouted NO!! Den she said "Faith, you are so childish!!" I was so pissed off and scold her 'FUCK OFF!!' Damn fucking angry can.. Argh..
I'm so fucking piss off wit TRISHA.. Trying to act poor thing izzit?? U did it..

This is my little red, red hand..

All u trying to do is to make me scold u infront of Kelly oni ma.. Good Job!!
On Fri, i met Charlie, we wen Clarke Quay to eat Bah Ku Teh, den wen to walk around to take photos wit her wife.. =) We drop by Check In to say Hi to HuiBin.. Den we head to Cine to Play pool b4 we took train home..
I'm believe in Karma and I'm waiting oni.. KARMA BITES!!

@ Gardens wit Family

2010 hearing from Faith 14th entry

Ytd was at home the whole day.. Den at nite my sis & bro came back with the childs.. After dinner, my bro and his wife goin to Serangoon Gardens to drink at a pub name Bull Dog and i wen along, Later on after my niece and nephew sleep le den my sis came join us.. And we took some photos.. I can't even rmb wen was the last photo dat we 3siblings took photo tgt.. Mayb wen i was still damn young ba.. lolx.. After dat we wen geylang to eat dim sum.. So nice and full.. =D

Sylvia (Sis), me, Branden (Bro) & Cynthia (Sis-in-Law)

Do i look like my sis or my bro?????

Homely week, wit Play..

2010 hearing from Faith 13th entry

On Tue, was home whole day oso.. wake up at evening time as usual.. Was abit moody and stress.. frens around are quarrelling.. Am i involve?? Kinda i guess.. And i'm like in between.. Haix...
Y izzit bcuz of T, C & K quarrel.. Haix.. All like juz misunderstanding, bcuz one care so much dat she said sometime not so nice, ended up wit bigger problem..
For Wed, I was whole day at home... I didn't slp again.. Finally was abit tired took a nap at 6pm.. Woke up at 7+, still feeling tired.. Finally 8+ cannot take it le, went to slp hoping to wake up next morning.. Ended up kept waking up.. 12+ Charlie text, asking if i wanna meet her for a drink, so 1am wen downstair coffee shop, drink and chat and smoke till 2+.. Den reach home, use com again till 7+ 8am den slp..
After talking to Charlie, hearing some stuff.. Is history goin to repeat again?? Can i take it once more?? Is dat call fren?? Pls dun, pls..
On Thur, i woke up at 12+noon.. like finally.. hahaha.. Den I met Charlie, Vanessa & Fel for dinner at Lil India, den we head to Maxwell to drink.. Jiselle was there, Kelly came very late.. We finish one bottle in an hour sia.. Crazy, den Vanessa and me had abit more beer.. OMG, i was red sia.. Damn high.. Den we wen Play to dance til 3 and each had another Tequila Shots.. Wohoo.. After dat Charlie and me wen to ECP, we chat,chill, relax & play wit water.. So nice.. It's been awhile since i had such a nite.. And we left at 7+.. Reach home so tired and slp at 8+..
At Play, i was dancing wit K, very close.. C face change, K saw, i saw.. But after dat C and me did talk abt it abit, she's ok lar, things are fine..
on Fri, I feel so tired 2day.. I kept waking up, but fnally woke up at 5+.. Den juz slack at home.. At 2.30am, i wen down to Charlie's place to chat & chill wit her.. Time flies, was as her place till 8+ and i juz got home awhile.. Abit awake sia, OMG, am i goin to slp??
C & me share alot wit each other, on our past.. Most happy is wen she told me dat she is okie if K & me get tgt, if K's willing.. I got the 'passport' or green light le.. =D

My Neighbor, Charlie.. =D

2010 hearing from Faith 12th entry

On Sun night, Charlie & her sis moved over to my block from Bedok.. =D yay!! I wen to help dem abit to carry their stuff up to their new home.. After dat we had dinner at the coffee shop downstair.. Oh, next time i can always meet Charlie le.. haha.. So fun!! After dat on MSN, had a bad convo wit Kelly, juz bcuz i wan to know if SHAWTY & Cutie Pie is me.. She wan to know wat's not me.. Sigh..
I'm getting from bad to worst sia.. I from sleeping at 6-7am in the morning to now I slept at 4pm on Mon.. OMG!! I'm goin crazy.. Am i staying on the wrong side of the earth?? Something wrong wit my body clock.. haix.... Anyway, i'm ok wit Kelly le, i explained to her & she oso told me who is cutie pie le.. It's reli not me!! :(
Den on Mon night, i woke up at 8+pm, continue to stick to my com.. At 11+, wen downstair to help my mum to close her rojak store, as she's not feeling well.. But ended up wen she's home, she watch show until 3+am.. -.- lolx.. Oh yea, Sun nite i got talk to Doreen on MSN oso.. Trying to sound normal.. The convo wasn't dat bad.. =D
At 4+, Charlie was hungry, so we met and wen downstair's coffee shop to eat and chat.. So cool rite.. We chill till abt 5.30am den we wen home.. hehe =D I'm still miss Doreen alot, still tinking of her unknowingly everyday.. And on fb Doreen is engaged to Leon le.. :(
And i continue wit my shows.. Now 9+ le, i shd reli try to slp abit.. FORCE MYSELF TO SLEEP!! haha.. My mind is filled wit Doreen, Kelly.. Kelly, Doreen.. Doreen, Kelly.. Kelly, Doreen.. lolx.. But of course still got my frens, my buddies, my niang, my love & my pts.. hehe.. LOVE ALL of u who see dis!! ♥♥♥

泳兒, 林峯 - 《明天以后》

2010 hearing from Faith 11th entry

泳兒, 林峯 - 《明天以后》

在你的记忆里面有一个我
在你最痛苦的时候陪你渡过
难过过了 天晴朗了 我就走

你拯救我的寂寞 我的痛 我的梦
在你的面前 我不必保留
还来不及对你说 迟到的我的心动

你的好 你的坏
我的脾气你最懂
我不要你来心疼我
(我不要你离开我)
明天的以后 我们会懂 失恋的挫折让人变更成熟

我对你感觉胜过爱情
因为有你 给我勇气 给我
用不完的运气
其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心让你伤心
(我不怕会伤心)

对不起 我对你 再好再亲密都不能在一起
最后看你在别人怀里
有天我会找到我的唯一
(我并不是你的唯一)
还微笑祝福你

你拯救我的寂寞 我的痛 我的梦
在你的面前 我不必保留
我从来没对你说 压抑的我的心动

我的好 我的坏 我的脾气你最懂
我不要你来心疼我
明天的以后 我们会懂 失恋的挫折让人变更成熟

我对你感觉胜过爱情
因为有你 给我勇气 给我
用不完的运气
其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心让你伤心
(我不怕会伤心)

对不起 我对你 再好再亲密都不能在一起
最后看你在别人怀里
有天我会找到我的唯一
(我并不是你的唯一)
还微笑祝福你

Oh... 爱情总让人折磨
(Oh... Oh... Oh...)
所以我们才选择
做比情人更好的朋友

我对你感觉胜过爱情
因为有你 给我勇气 给我
用不完的运气
其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心让你伤心
(我不怕会伤心)

对不起 我对你 再好再亲密都不能在一起
最后看你在别人怀里
有天我会找到我的唯一
(我并不是你的唯一)
还微笑祝福你

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Dis song makes me tink of HuiBin, Doreen & Kelly..
Recently i have been listening to dis song alot.. Every word in dis song is like so meaningful to me.. Especially dis line, 对不起 我对你 再好再亲密都不能在一起 最后看你在别人怀里.. It's like totally how i feel.. OMG, my life is like so messed up.. My mind juz got so much things to tink abt.. Basically FML, TTM!! I'm juz putting myself from one love shit to another.. FAITH, WEN CAN U STOP BANGING WALL??

Steamboat again..

2010 hearing from Faith 10th entry

OMG, i can't believe in myself dat wat time i wen to slp.. At abt 12noon, i msg If Cai, asking if she free 2nite for steamboat.. She told me okie, but we din set the time.. Finally at 2+, i was abit tired.. Tot of goin for a nap, i wen to slp.. At 6+, Peter called me, was still so tired and wen back to slp.. At almost 9pm, i woke up, still feeling very tired, i text If, she juz woke up too.. So both of us wen to prepare and we meet at Bugis..

At almost 11pm, i reach Bugis, juz nice If called.. She juz reach Bugis too.. She came wit her fren Lenise.. We wen to eat at Golden Chopstick.. We juz eat and eat, talk and drink and eat again for 2+ hrs.. Den we walk to Boat Quay for a drink and i tot NR6 home..
Kelly comment on my fb status, I put ':( It's not me!!' she ask Wat not me?? Haix.. I'm reli gone case.. Y i wan things i know i always wun get??

Date Night

2010 hearing from Faith 9th entry

Oh, i slept from 10am till like 6pm.. Reli tired sia, and got headache somemore.. Den i head down to Vivo City to meet Madeleine & Charlie for dinner.. We wen to the Food Republic, we had dim sum again.. Haix, but dun have 小龙包.. We were so hungry, we order quite abit, but we still scare not enough, tinking of after dat still can buy other things to eat.. But ended up we were so full le.. lolx.. Lucky nvr order more..
I ask Kelly so y izzit Grapes on Fire & is coated wit Sugar.. She told me dat she likes grapes, on fire is wen she's angry, but Sugar coated is bcuz, she oni post those happy stuff, but dat was wen she first started lar..
At 10+, Kelly came to join us.. We chilled at Starbuck until 12.20am den we wen to watch movie, Date Night.. It's wasn't dat bad lar.. At first tot dat i will b some stupid, funny show.. haha.. Den we shared cab home at abt 3am..
And she insist dat SHAWTY & cutie pie is Charlie.. I'm not sure abt cutie pie lar.. But how can SHAWTY is not me????? (below is the 2 paragraph dat she post on 3 Apr, how can it not be me??) Arrhhhh!!!! Emo-ing again.. FML...
After reaching hm, i got online, den was chatting wit HuiBin on fb.. I told her dat i can't slp recently, she ask me dun tink of her so much.. Den i told her yea lor, so wen she wanna b my gf.. She told me 31st April.. I'm so looking toward dat day.. lolx...
Kelly: "Talk about Pon De Floor, makes me think of that night. NOT AGAIN. NOT BUTTER AGAIN! Everytime sure smtg happen at butter. Ugrh. I can't believe it man. I don't know how it even started. =/ Okay fine, I admit. Tongue piercing is hot. Haha."
Oh yea, i was so bored dat i google my name and i found this.. Faith Soong Kai Ling, 17, of ITE College Central (Bishan Campus), who chose the Service Skills (Office) course, said: “I want to further my studies, especially in Accounting, after completing my Nitec in Service Skills (Office) course.” from http://www.ite.edu.sg/about_ite/TQW_Archived_Issues/Tqw_77/77_p03.html.. OMG, wat am i doin now??
Kelly: "Moving on, I think you're cute. HAHA. What should I nickname you.. I shall call you, SHAWTY. HAHA! I pray that you don't like me. We'll be great friends and have great fun."
And until now i still can't slp, again.. Everyday have been sleeping in the morning or afternoon or even dun sleep.. Wat's wrong wit me sia?? Haix...
Now i reli duno wat she is tinking, i dun even know mine own tinking too.. haix.. Y am i trying to hurt myself again, goin for something dat is impossible!! I tink i'm reli damn stubborn & love to bang wall...

The Time Has Come!!

2010 hearing from Faith 8th entry

I juz got home, having headache sia.. Today was the day of drink til drop.. Woohoo!! But i din drop.. lolx... I wen to meet Charlie & Kelly at 9+ at Tiong Bahru and we head to Holiday Inn to get drinks..
Ruu kept disturb me abt Kelly sia.. Irritating..
Den we wen to Maxwell to drink drank drunk.. Charlie, Kelly, Ruu, Madeleine, Trisha, Jiselle, Jerine, Gab & me had 6 btl of beer, a btl of White Wine & a btl of Bombay Sapphire Gin.. We wen in to Play oni at like 1am.. haha.. I was oni abit high during starting, but after dat i dun feel anything le.. Sianx.. But Charlie was damn high sia.. lolx..
In Play, i suddenly emo, over Kelly, duno y..
After Play, we were outside talking for quite awhile.. Den Trisha wen back first as she got sch, den after dat Charlie & Jiselle share cab home and Madeleine, Kelly & me wen to eat dim sum at 126 揾到食 b4 we head home.. The Dim Sum is good.. =) I like..
Omg, y i emo over Kelly sia?? Wat i'm i tinking?? Wat Kelly tinking?? But Doreen is still in my mind, always..

Steamboat!!

2010 hearing from Faith 7th entry

Wow, so tired sia.. I ytd oni slept at 12.30pm.. At 5+ Xinyi & Greg start calling me le.. They woke me up and we went to Tim's place to have steamboat.. I still have to carry the steamboat pot over, heavy sia.. keke.. Somemore i have to walk like 10mins to the busstop..

I reach Tim's place at abt 7pm & we wen to Shop & Save to buy stuff.. Each of us can't out wit abt $7, we bought 4packet of white rice, fishball, meatball, crabstick, cheese hotdot, taiwan sausage, otah, toufu, golden mushroom, veg & drinks & sambal chilli & chicken stock.. Wohoo..

We wen back, prepare the soup first, wash & cut the food.. After abt 20mins, the soup still not boil yet, we throw the first round of food in and cover it back.. Den we were so hungry, we dun care anymore, guess the soup is hot enough, we juz eat.. After first round of eating, we throw in 2nd round, by den we were abit full le.. So we cover back and watch tv.. Den i saw the soup finally start to boil.. Lolx.. Den we eat and talk and watch tv, smoke, eat again till we were so full.. hahaha..

Den at 11+, we wen to Compass Point to meet Marilyn & Denice.. But b4 day, we cooked the rest of the food, pack in a box and bring it over too.. lolx.. We chill & talk & smoke & eat & drink & bitch.. Later on we wen to Xinyi's hse there, the top level of multi-storey carpark, to chill to 5+am.. There very clean, windy and got nobody care de.. So fun!!!! =D We enjoyed our nite..
But wenever Greg mention Doreen's name, juz unknowing, i will turn & look at him & listen.. Hmm..
I MISS DOREEN HO WEI JING!!!!!

曹格 - 《数到五答应我》

2010 hearing from Faith 6th entry

曹格 - 《数到五答应我》

第一次看见你 就为你心动 (第一次看见你 我喝醉酒)
聪明的我 怎能让你走 (是我的错 请你原谅我)
第二次看见你 我竟然失控 (第二次看见你 就为你心动)
是我的错 请你原谅我 (聪明的我 怎能让你走)
第三次看见你 想要告诉你 (第四次看见你 想要告诉你)
我真的爱你 是真的爱你 (我真的爱你 是真的爱你)
第四次看见你 我有些要求 (现在我看见你 我有些要求)
希望你能够 安安静静的聆听 (希望你能够 安安静静的聆听)

一 让我保护你
二 让我照顾你
三 所有的要求不能当作游戏
四 接受这命运
五 永远不分离
最后一个 一定要说你愿意

Wanna be your lover, I wanna be your man
我只要你开心多一点
Can you be my lover, Don't wanna be your friend
给你幸福的永远

第一次看见你 就为你心动
聪明的我 怎能让你走
第二次看见你 我竟然失控
是我的错 请你原谅我
第三次看见你 想要告诉你
我真的爱你 是真的爱你
第四次看见你 我有些要求
希望你能够 安安静静的聆听

One 让我保护你
Two 让我照顾你
Three 所有的要求不能当作游戏
Four 接受这命运
Five 永远不分离
说~~~ 你愿意

Wanna be your lover, I wanna be your man
我只希望陪你多一点
Can you be my lover, Don't wanna be your friend
给你幸福每一天

因为我
Wanna be your lover, I wanna be your man
我只要你开心多一点
Can you be my lover, Don't wanna be your friend
~~给你幸福的永远

你说你害怕 因为受过伤
不需要害怕 因为我不是他

Wanna be your lover, I wanna be your man
我只希望陪你多一点
Can you be my lover, Don't wanna be your friend
给你幸福每一天

因为我
Wanna be your lover, I wanna be your man
我只要你开心多一点
Can you be my lover, Don't wanna be your friend
给你幸福的永远~~~

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This song has been quite afew years.. Last time always hear ppl sing dis song in ktv pubs, but i nvr personally sang it before.. It was until i know her, until the day we stared dating, i fall in love wit dis song.. like how i fall in love wit Doreen..
Even until after we were back to frens, i still hoping dat i day, i will sing dis song to her & ask her to be my gf again.. All dis are now memories too!! How i still wish dat one day, i can sing dis song to Doreen..

Everything is OVER!!

2010 hearing from Faith 5th entry

Now is 7+ in the morning, I juz got home sia.. Ytd was at home, so bored and hungry.. Last min wen to meet Greg & Tim to go Seng Kang to eat at 10pm.. Den we head down to Punggol end to chill for awhile.. But after awhile it seems like goin to rain so we took the last bus out at 12.40am.. Greg ask me wat i feeling abt the 2 of dem.. I was like Doreen & Leon?? He say yea, they are like dating, am i ok.. I told Greg, they are dating, not 'like' dating.. lolx...
While on the bus, Xinyi msg & we head to Compass Point to meet dem.. Den Xinyi, Marilyn, Denise, PeiQi, Greg, Tim & me juz sit, slack, chill, smoke & bitch outside Compass Point.. Such a relax nite.. Greg left earlier at abt 4, the rest of us left abt 5.30am.. Tim & me still wen to have Mac breakfast at Rivervale Plaza den bus home.. Shiok.. Oh yea, Xinyi ask me if Doreen tgt wit Leon.. cux some1 ask her aft seeing Doreen's r/s status on fb.. While on my way hm, i'm scare to see it wit my own eye.. Wen i reach hm, i wen fb, first thing i saw on my Top News "Doreen is in a relationship with Leon Chua"..
Oh yea, and b4 i wen out, i wen to read Kelly's blog.. Everytime i read the blog i will laugh.. And i juz wonder if the one mentioned in the blog izzit me.. Is dat person talking abt me?? I wanna know.. haha.. But i'm so not goin to let that person know i read the blog.. kekeke.. Back to Doreen.. Wat can i still say?? I reli hope Leon will treat Doreen nice & love her wit all her heart.. But my heart still pain.. How long will it takes to heal dis time??

A tired Saturday..

2010 hearing from Faith 4th entry

The weather is killing me.. I juz had an ice cold shower, at 4+ in the middle of the nite.. Din knew dat it's so damn shiok.. Woohoo.. Seeing Leon's display pic on fb & msn is killing me.. OMG!!
I'm feeling much better today le.. Life goes on.. Me moving on.. Juz wan my frens to be around me, be wit me, by my side, chill, enjoy and have fun tgt.. Dat's all i need now.. Frens are the best.. =D But i still miss her, wonder where she wen 2day, i din even took a photo wit her b4.. FML!!
Anyway, i din slept ytd and still awake now, oni had an hr nap b4 meeting Tim at 3pm to go back to Xinmin's Homecoming day.. Din get to see any teachers or schmates dat we reli know, sad.. Tink we are getting old le.. lolx... Faith, I need to learn to b strong, i needa love myself more..
After dat, Tim & i wen to Hougang Mall to eat, Bridget came to join us.. Den we head to J8 to catch a movie.. Clash of the Titans isn't dat bad, quite a nice show, we enjoyed it.. And den, 8+ we headed hm le.. I'm like so guai.. haha.. so not use to it.. But i guess i was tired le.. =) y is my mind still full of Doreen Ho, tink of her, talk abt her, missing her.. One thing i like abt her, she's truthful to me, but the truth hurts..

I finally text her!!

2010 hearing from Faith 3rd entry

From now on, we will be friends.. I will try to let go.. It's time to do so.. The rest will all be memories..

9 Feb - I know you at chalet, i was abit drunk, so high.. I even say some funny things.. lolx.. Wat a way to know u..

25 Feb - My gay fren came to tell me dat someone say i very cute, kept asking if i goin Play 2nite.. Den at nite @Play, i realise it was u, but i was high again.. I got to know u again, dance wit u & got number from u..

5 Mar - First time meeting u out, wit another fren, shop at Ion, and den chill & bitch around.. Den wen to find gay frens to chill again at Playground..

6 Mar - Meet u again wit frens, at nite wen Play wit gay frens.. First time i kiss u, u tell me dat u dun fling, so how?? I was abit high again.. I ask u to b my first gf, u tell me to date first.. One of my most happy day dat i will nvr forget..

7 Mar - By afternoon i still haven't sleep, u was goin out to meet ur fren, u text me, calling me Baby, go sleep den! first time calling me baby..

8 Mar - U suppose to wake up at 4.30am.. I still haven't sleep, sent u a morning msg.. Text u all the way till 7am wen u start work, den i sleep.. Woke up at 12+, from Hougang wen down to Lower Kent Ridge Road at 3pm to surprise u, pick u off work, send u home @Woodland.. Den watch a movie on ur lappy, u were tired, u took a nap, den we head to CWP for dinner and waited for bus wit u.. U told me alot of things, one thing i like abt u is u are truthful to me..

9 Mar - I drank until quite high, 5+ i wen home i still text u.. Knowing dat u are preparing to go work.. 5.40am u text me a long msg, started wit 'Hi baby, faster go back rest' and u tell me to b fren first, to know each other better.. And ask me to pls reply.. I tink u were cute to ask a drunk person to reply.. Replying halfway i fall aslp.. u called me b4 u started work, i rmb, but i duno wat we said.. Afternn i woke up, got more and more emo, tink abt it feel like tearing.. Wen to cut my hair.. Nick tried to b funny, wen to call u juz to let me listen to ur voice.. Sorry dat i lie to u dat i wasn't wit Nick.. The oni time i lied to u.. Wanted to pierce my tongue oso, but wen down too late.. And she say my tongue short sia.. lolx..

10 Mar - Wen to bugis, knowing she also goin to bugis.. Waited juz to bump into her.. Den she wen to tatoo.. And i got my tongue pierce dat day oso..

12 Mar - I din msg her the whole of 11 Mar, she finially msg me first at 4.44pm.. OMG, fuck happy sia..

14 Mar - First time officially dating her out.. But after dat later on still join her frens.. After she's home, i was at fren's b'dae party, kinda quarrel wit her over msg.. I cried, lucky Angeline and Millie were there.. =)

15 Mar - We meet to talk things out.. Things back to normal.. Was shock dat u know dat the 2msg not i type one.. After dat i type a super long msg to tell u how i feel..

16 Mar - U end work at 9pm, u had fever.. i kinda worried..

18 Mar - U got diarrhea after we had seafood on Sun.. Den at nite, u see doctor, told me u got mild lung infection.. Make me worried sia.. I was at Play, and i miss u, i called u..

19 Mar - after Play, i stay at Maxwell, make myself awake to give u morning call..

20 Mar - wen Taboo to drink wit Ben, Pris & Sze Qi.. Still can ta bao for u.. lolx.. Den we dance.. U can still sleep on my shoulder for half an hr in Play.. Den we go Maxwell eat b4 i sent u home..

24 Mar - I wen all the to CCK Polyclinic to see doctor, juz wanting to c u.. But wen i saw u, i dun dare to call u.. How dumb can i b rite.. Den wen i text u, u told me y din told u earlier.. Den u can accompany me.. The more dumb i felt.. haha.. At nite i wen to Play L4D, talk to u on fb, u call me lousy pork.. I say u skinny pork.. I still tell u Pork ♥ Skinny Pork.. hahaha..

25 Mar - Angeline told me she meeting Jie Lun at Woodland, i so happy, an excuse to go find u.. I still try to c if i can bump into u in train, but in the end nope, waited for u at Woodland.. And den u wen home change and came meet me for dinner.. After dat i still sent u home b4 i wen Play for Tarot Card reading..

26 Mar - Today we celebrated Ben's b'dae, u told me u working, but ended up u nvr go work, u oso nvr come.. Den i text u half way u no reply.. I was emo again.. Reach home saw dat u were still commenting on fb at 1+ 2am, but i din reply to my msg at abt 1am..

27 Mar - Took it as nothing happened, still can text u asking if u fall aslp while we texting, u say yea.. Den okie lor.. At nite, we wen to Taboo to drink and den wen Play.. Dis time everyone where so drunk.. I oni rmb parts of it.. I duno how we wen back to Play.. We were at dancefloor, den we wen Maxwell to eat.. Wen back to dancefloor, wen smoke and things happened.. And u gave me 2 love bites.. But after dat u saw someone and we left.. I sent u home st8.. But ur msg was sweet.. Although no baby dis time but u text 'Hey b'.. And i drop at woodland too.. haha.. Not enough cash.. Was at woodland from 3-6am.. den took a bus home.. How nice.. How smart.. haha.. 28 Mar - U having hangover still wen to work till late.. While u walking home alone, so late at nite, from Woodland u called me.. I'm so happy..

30 Mar - I ask if u meeting to tmr, yes or yes?? haha.. U ask me to cook Macaroni Cheese and Mushroom Soup for u.. I was stress for awhile.. Den u say too troublesome, meet u for dinner wit ur sis instead..

31 Mar - Meeting u at Orchard.. But i search for 2train to find u in the train.. haha.. Den was shopping and dinner wit ur sis.. So nice.. =)

1 Apr - U wanted to go Singapore Museum, i wen to check all the details.. And ask u to go.. U den Play an April Fool joke on me, ask me if i wan to b ur darling for 2nite.. Knowing dat it's April Fool day, i still ganna trick.. dotx.. And u reply HAPPY APRIL FOOL BITCH!! I duno which one is ur fren sent one.. But i dun feel any good.. Den saw u at Play, u wit ur frens.. And at 4.52am u sent me dat text.. I saw the first line i dun wan to read it anymore.. After afew mins, i still have to read it.. Den i wen to Angeline, i hug her and i juz broke down and cried.. Dis the first time Angeline see me like dat..

2 Apr - I was so sad.. I din go White Party, wen to Vivo to sell my ticket to my fren's fren.. Den walk from Vivo to Boomarang, 2hrs of walking, felt damn shiok..

3 Apr - I wen Play wit a b'dae boy.. U were oso there.. I tried to smile the whole nite.. I dun wan u to feel guilty, i wan u to enjoy ur nite.. I felt so tired not bcuz i have not enough slp, not bcuz of drinking too much, not bcuz of dancing too much.. But bcuz of trying to smile so much, trying to b okie infront of u..

8 Apr - Saw u at Play wit her.. Everything is so over..

9 Apr - Finally find dat courage to text u and let's b fren again.. I will work hard toward dat.. I will b find.. Faith, time to move on.. All dis will be memories from dis moment onward.. Doreen Ho, u will always b someone to me..

TwoQueens PLAYing Herstory Butter

2010 hearing from Faith 2nd entry

Ytd wen to Herstory party @Butter.. The moment i reach, saw my Niang, Angeline.. and it's April's b'dae.. woohoo.. Most of the usual ppl were all there.. But Butter was still kinda quite.. I wen up and join Charlie, Trisha they all.. Some of dem where drinking like crazy.. haha..

Back to April side, everyone were trying to make her drunk.. 1st round, 2nd round, 3th, 4th ,5th, wit different kind of drink.. haha.. Happy Birthday April.. =D

Den Charlie, Trisha, Madeleine, Rey, Liling, Janice, Jiamin, Ah Gan and some others wen to the dancefloor.. The music oni so so.. Somemore i din reli drink, not high enough to dance.. Boring.. The worst was there was dis trans, dat is fat, wearing bikini, doin poledance.. So damn turn off can.. Still trying to dance wit my frens, grinding my fren and kissing some butch.. OMG.. Total turn off..

At 2am, Charlie, Madeleine, Trisha & me decided to go over to Play.. The music was so much better at Play, but no much ppl lar.. Anyway, i saw her.. I saw things dat i shdn't have seen.. Everyone were not so much of dancing infront of me.. But trying to block my view oni.. Wat can i say.. Den i wen to smoking area.. After dat 3 of dem came to find me wit 2 other gals.. den 6 of us wen back to dancefloor and juz dance.. At almost 3am they left first.. Den until last song, den the rest of us go.. Oni at outside den i realise dat one of the 2other gals was Shu Juan.. haha.. I'm totally blurr le.. I duno where my mind wen to.. lolx.. Charlie and Trisha was shock wen i told dem dat i din know dat was Shu Juan the whole time.. haha.. wat a joke for the nite.. Den we 4 head over to Maxwell to eat.. Shoik.. haha..

It's juz great having ur frens around u.. Thankz to all of dem.. =D

My life..

2010 hearing from Faith 1st entry

It's been so long since i blog.. But life still the same.. Still full of shit.. Wen can i juz find dat someone dat will be there wit me?? So difficult to find juz one?? Am i so not good?? Wat's wrong wit me?? I reli tired of all those things.. But i can't stop myself loving you..

After 15months, i finally let go of Huibin, last Nov.. in dis 2 years, my crushes got Christina, Lynn, Bebe, Vicki, Jacqueline, Stacey, Vanessa, Pei Ling, Snow, Shiyun, Geraldine, Sandra, Shu Juan, Kelly...
Den i found Doreen.. I had a happy one month plus.. although i got my time of emo, but i was happy having her around.. Juz wen i tot dat things are getting better.. Life turn out to b the same.. So again, am i juz so bad?? So bad dat nobody ever likes me??

I miss the way she called me Baby and ask me to go sleep.. I miss clubbing wit her, dancing wit her, drinking wit her.. I miss picking her off work, goin to meet her, shop wit her.. I miss every single bit of her..

Time to move on!! Will i move?? I still wan to b by her side.. I dun wan her to feel guilty or anything.. I wan her to b happy.. Will she allow me to b by her side?? Wat shd i reli do?? I understand dat by letting go of her might b the best choice.. But can i reli do it??

Anyway, thanks to everyone dat has been by my side.. I know i'm a extremely stubborn person.. I will try to change.. No promise though.. haha..

And another things is Kelly, i still think dat she is cute.. But i know dat there wun b anything wit both of us de.. Although there a urge.. lolx.. We will b great frens.. =)

I LOVE DOREEN HO!!!