2012 hearing from Faith 1st entry
My feeling now, i also don't know how to describe. Everything happened so fast, seems like dying down fast also!!
When i first know you, you give me such a confortable feeling having you around. Very fast we became good friends. We meet up, we hang out, we text. People scold me, clubing still text!! People say i crazy, keep smiling and laughing at my phone.
I know my feeling for you is more than a normal friend le. But i'm not ready, i just got out from one drama, why get myself into another one so fast? And i also don't want to hurt you, since i'm not ready. But texting you, you are so emo, you keep emphasizing that nobody ever want to be more than friends with you. Seeing you so emo, my heart was so pain. You are constantly affecting my emotions too!!
Finally we told each other that we are interested with each other.. I am so happy that 2-3days, SUPER HAPPY, never had such a feeling for very long le. You asked "is it weird wanting to be with that someone the moment they leave?" I can tell you, it's not weird at all!! Cause i felt the same way as you do!! Just when i thought i was living in heaven for a couple of days, things change?
Why can your feeling change so fast? For one day, you can miss me so much, another day, you can tell me that you didn't like me that much actually!! From heaven, i fell hard right into HELL!! And i must stay strong, i told you i will give you time, i will wait, i will fight for you, i will be there for you.
I'm not giving up yet!! I'm just very tired and don't know what you are thinking, but i will wait.. And i just don't know what to do now. Even your b'dae plans also all fail liao, feel so useless, so depress.. SIGH!!
#missyoudieme!!
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