Princess & Pig!!

2012 hearing from Faith 1st entry

My feeling now, i also don't know how to describe. Everything happened so fast, seems like dying down fast also!!

When i first know you, you give me such a confortable feeling having you around. Very fast we became good friends. We meet up, we hang out, we text. People scold me, clubing still text!! People say i crazy, keep smiling and laughing at my phone.

I know my feeling for you is more than a normal friend le. But i'm not ready, i just got out from one drama, why get myself into another one so fast? And i also don't want to hurt you, since i'm not ready. But texting you, you are so emo, you keep emphasizing that nobody ever want to be more than friends with you. Seeing you so emo, my heart was so pain. You are constantly affecting my emotions too!!

Finally we told each other that we are interested with each other.. I am so happy that 2-3days, SUPER HAPPY, never had such a feeling for very long le. You asked "is it weird wanting to be with that someone the moment they leave?" I can tell you, it's not weird at all!! Cause i felt the same way as you do!! Just when i thought i was living in heaven for a couple of days, things change?

Why can your feeling change so fast? For one day, you can miss me so much, another day, you can tell me that you didn't like me that much actually!! From heaven, i fell hard right into HELL!! And i must stay strong, i told you i will give you time, i will wait, i will fight for you, i will be there for you.

I'm not giving up yet!! I'm just very tired and don't know what you are thinking, but i will wait.. And i just don't know what to do now. Even your b'dae plans also all fail liao, feel so useless, so depress.. SIGH!!

#missyoudieme!!

A New Begining??

2011 hearing from Faith 1st entry

It's been so long since i last blog..
My life has change so much..
Finally got myself a full-time job..
Has a gf, goin 8months in another few more day..
It's time i need to plan for my future, save some money..
I still love hanging out wit my old fren juz not so often..

Anyway, April Fool juz pass.. I realise there are alot of things dat i can't forget.. I didn't realise dat i can still rmb every bits of it so detailed until 1st April itself.. But life goes on..

Loser!!

2010 hearing from Faith 18th entry

I tink i sucha loser.
I'm playful, but can't b a player.
I can't get the one i love.
I wanna to b into a r/s but ended up i flirt.
I dun like to feel emo.
I wanna to make u happy, but i'm getting more sad.
I dun wanna b alone.
I can't get u now, i will go for others first.
I can't get anyone.
I flirt but ended up still me getting hurt.
FML!!

Can't wait for mornig!!!

2010 Hearing from Faith 17th entry

Tue, Check In, HuiBin..
Chill, Chat, Drink, Eat & Smoke..
Memories came back!!
Miss Millions, Miss those happening & CRAZY days..
Miss Singing & drink drank drunk..

Thur, L nite, Play..
Drink, Smoke, Dance, Hug, Kiss.. And Quarrel & Fight ..
Dat's wat we see every week at Play..
Drama mama..

And now i'm waiting for morning..
To Malaysia, Malacca wit Buddy Charlie & me..
Fun!!
Eat all the food,
Smoke all i wan,
Relax & chill all i can..

Sick but Peaceful Week..

2010 Hearing from Faith 16th entry

I had a very bad stomach/gastric/wateva pain since Sat all the way to wed den i feel much much better, it keeps coming back on and off and it's can be really very painful.. I was so in pain on Sat dat i simply whole day rolling on my bed and juz slp so dat i can dun feel the pain, OMG.. next few days was better, but on and off it still comes back.. Duno wat's wrong.. Izzit bcuz i drink too much?? Or suddenly got gastric?? Something is wrong wit my body, but who care.. haha.. As long as no more pain now..

On Wed, i finally wen to cut my hair.. 2months le sia.. So long & messy.. Now is neat and handsome.. haha =D After dat head to Grapevine to meet JingXian & Ron for dinner.. It's been so long since i meet JingXian and update her.. She make me go all the way back to 2years ago, after HuiBin and start updating her.. OMG, having a hard time, 2years leh.. haha.. And she still dun like HuiBin, she still rmb dat i scolded her cb 3times on my 20th b'dae after i was drunk, partly bcuz of HuiBin.. lolx...

On Thur, it's Herstory again @Butter.. Wanted to go Play, but Jiselle having Femme Quest preview, we all go support her.. Overall, Butter dat day wasn't dat bad lar.. After club, Charlie and me wen to BQ, Thai Smile Cafe to eat Tom Yum Soup.. Shiok!! Wooo....

On Fri, Sheesha again.. Dis time wit Charlie, Ruu, Keith, CJae, Jet & SJ.. Nice time spent..

Ytd, i wen to Brendan's chalet at Aloha Loyang at abt 6+pm, Kit and Chong Hao came, oso saw some Xinmin junior.. I stayed til 10+ den head to Le Bar 2 for Vanessa's 20 B'dae.. She still as pretty as ever.. keke.. Sky, Jason & Neo came oso.. Saw Vaness too.. After dat tink she abit high le lar.. I was sitting down, and she came to hug me from the back, saying dat she's so sorry dat she din accompany her much as she was other frens around.. Den she goes on wit saying dat my new hair style suits me, i'm getting more handsome, wat if she falls for me.. I disturb her back, say dat she is st8 wat, but i will wait lor.. lolx.. hahaha.. But was a great nite too.. Very long nvr chill out wit 三位蔡先生.. I miss MILLIONS!! I miss those days..
Indeed i was flattered by Vanessa lar.. haha.. And another OMG, i juz found out dat Vanessa and Vaness are real sister..

FUCK OFF!!

2010 Hearing from Faith 15th entry

On Mon, Keith they all plan a surpise B'dae party for Shu Juan.. Keith, CJae & Jet were at East Coast since 5, i reach at abt 8pm, the funniest thing was wen i reach, oni Jet was there alone.. And dat was bcuz they forget to bring the whole trey of Chicken Wings and the B'dae cake.. lolx.. And best was, CJae took Keith's hse key to go back to her own hse, ended up have to wait for her parents to come back.. lolx..

Abt 10+, the B'dae Gal were brought here by some of her frens randomly, but she already suspected.. Sianx.. keke.. Den she wen to change, and next thing she know, she's in the sea.. hahaha... We juz, eat, chill, drink, smoke and relax till 12mn.. And cake cutting time.. Wat's Next?? Throw SJ into the sea again.. Jet throw her in, so she oso wet.. Follow by Keith and CJae.. Who's next?? OMG, they chase after me!! I surrender.. lolx.. Pass all my thing to SJ, and they carry me and threw me into the sea.. So wet and cold.. Den there was dis guy, Keith pour Orange syrup on him.. lolx.. And her pour the whole ice box ice water on us.. I ganna my whole back.. So cold.. Charlie oni came at 1+ and we chill to morning and see sun rise.. We oso took alot of photos and video.. Wat a crazy nite.. =D

On Tue, i meet Kelly, Mad & T for Dim Sum at Geylang, Mongkok Dim Sum.. We have been craving for it.. And it's so called Mad's b'dae dinner.. After dat, we head to Bugis for Sheesha and wen talk to Odeon Towers, and chilled at Mac till almost 4am..
Can c dat K&T haf bn contacting.. T shdn't b here 2day, it seems like a plan..
On Wed, Keith ask me out.. I wen to PS to meet her and SJ.. Den wen to Bugis to walk walk, eat desert and chill at Mac... Had a great talk wit Keith oso..
T text me twice, but i din reply.. Den K text.. Now wat?? Go report lar!!
Thankx Keith!! Den reply T, she dun c dat she did anything wrong.. Say y am i harsh on her?? WTF!!! Wat a 'good' fren..
On Thur, i meet Charlie first.. We wen to Chinatown to eat Chicken Rice.. Nice!! =D Den we head over to Maxwell, i wanna get drunk!! Dat's the plan for the nite.. And Charlie suppose to ask me a question.. Who do i love.. but too many things happened, she herself oso high..

I was indeed drunk.. I rmb Ruu ask me to wake up and so in Play, was already almost 2.30am.. So i juz wake up and cross the road and wen to Play, but instead, Charlie, Ruu & Dolly din go in at all.. lolx.. Kelly came wit T, i dun wanna c T!! Wei Lun & Baoyi were here oso.. So complicated..
Talking abt me goin in Play.. KNN CCB.. There was dis PB dat came to dance wit me and molest me.. Lucky i was still sober enough to react and Prawn saved me.. Thank God!! K is dating wit T le.. I din lose to her.. I juz lost to myself.. I choose ppl, ppl choose me.. I chose D first, it's all my fault..
After Play, i wen to find Charlie.. I was still so high, i was lying on the ground.. Den Trisha came over say she wan to talk to me.. I said no.. She say "Faith, i wan to talk to u.." I said no!! She den say again " Faith, I wanna talk to you!!" I shouted NO!! Den she said "Faith, you are so childish!!" I was so pissed off and scold her 'FUCK OFF!!' Damn fucking angry can.. Argh..
I'm so fucking piss off wit TRISHA.. Trying to act poor thing izzit?? U did it..

This is my little red, red hand..

All u trying to do is to make me scold u infront of Kelly oni ma.. Good Job!!
On Fri, i met Charlie, we wen Clarke Quay to eat Bah Ku Teh, den wen to walk around to take photos wit her wife.. =) We drop by Check In to say Hi to HuiBin.. Den we head to Cine to Play pool b4 we took train home..
I'm believe in Karma and I'm waiting oni.. KARMA BITES!!

@ Gardens wit Family

2010 hearing from Faith 14th entry

Ytd was at home the whole day.. Den at nite my sis & bro came back with the childs.. After dinner, my bro and his wife goin to Serangoon Gardens to drink at a pub name Bull Dog and i wen along, Later on after my niece and nephew sleep le den my sis came join us.. And we took some photos.. I can't even rmb wen was the last photo dat we 3siblings took photo tgt.. Mayb wen i was still damn young ba.. lolx.. After dat we wen geylang to eat dim sum.. So nice and full.. =D

Sylvia (Sis), me, Branden (Bro) & Cynthia (Sis-in-Law)

Do i look like my sis or my bro?????

Homely week, wit Play..

2010 hearing from Faith 13th entry

On Tue, was home whole day oso.. wake up at evening time as usual.. Was abit moody and stress.. frens around are quarrelling.. Am i involve?? Kinda i guess.. And i'm like in between.. Haix...
Y izzit bcuz of T, C & K quarrel.. Haix.. All like juz misunderstanding, bcuz one care so much dat she said sometime not so nice, ended up wit bigger problem..
For Wed, I was whole day at home... I didn't slp again.. Finally was abit tired took a nap at 6pm.. Woke up at 7+, still feeling tired.. Finally 8+ cannot take it le, went to slp hoping to wake up next morning.. Ended up kept waking up.. 12+ Charlie text, asking if i wanna meet her for a drink, so 1am wen downstair coffee shop, drink and chat and smoke till 2+.. Den reach home, use com again till 7+ 8am den slp..
After talking to Charlie, hearing some stuff.. Is history goin to repeat again?? Can i take it once more?? Is dat call fren?? Pls dun, pls..
On Thur, i woke up at 12+noon.. like finally.. hahaha.. Den I met Charlie, Vanessa & Fel for dinner at Lil India, den we head to Maxwell to drink.. Jiselle was there, Kelly came very late.. We finish one bottle in an hour sia.. Crazy, den Vanessa and me had abit more beer.. OMG, i was red sia.. Damn high.. Den we wen Play to dance til 3 and each had another Tequila Shots.. Wohoo.. After dat Charlie and me wen to ECP, we chat,chill, relax & play wit water.. So nice.. It's been awhile since i had such a nite.. And we left at 7+.. Reach home so tired and slp at 8+..
At Play, i was dancing wit K, very close.. C face change, K saw, i saw.. But after dat C and me did talk abt it abit, she's ok lar, things are fine..
on Fri, I feel so tired 2day.. I kept waking up, but fnally woke up at 5+.. Den juz slack at home.. At 2.30am, i wen down to Charlie's place to chat & chill wit her.. Time flies, was as her place till 8+ and i juz got home awhile.. Abit awake sia, OMG, am i goin to slp??
C & me share alot wit each other, on our past.. Most happy is wen she told me dat she is okie if K & me get tgt, if K's willing.. I got the 'passport' or green light le.. =D

My Neighbor, Charlie.. =D

2010 hearing from Faith 12th entry

On Sun night, Charlie & her sis moved over to my block from Bedok.. =D yay!! I wen to help dem abit to carry their stuff up to their new home.. After dat we had dinner at the coffee shop downstair.. Oh, next time i can always meet Charlie le.. haha.. So fun!! After dat on MSN, had a bad convo wit Kelly, juz bcuz i wan to know if SHAWTY & Cutie Pie is me.. She wan to know wat's not me.. Sigh..
I'm getting from bad to worst sia.. I from sleeping at 6-7am in the morning to now I slept at 4pm on Mon.. OMG!! I'm goin crazy.. Am i staying on the wrong side of the earth?? Something wrong wit my body clock.. haix.... Anyway, i'm ok wit Kelly le, i explained to her & she oso told me who is cutie pie le.. It's reli not me!! :(
Den on Mon night, i woke up at 8+pm, continue to stick to my com.. At 11+, wen downstair to help my mum to close her rojak store, as she's not feeling well.. But ended up wen she's home, she watch show until 3+am.. -.- lolx.. Oh yea, Sun nite i got talk to Doreen on MSN oso.. Trying to sound normal.. The convo wasn't dat bad.. =D
At 4+, Charlie was hungry, so we met and wen downstair's coffee shop to eat and chat.. So cool rite.. We chill till abt 5.30am den we wen home.. hehe =D I'm still miss Doreen alot, still tinking of her unknowingly everyday.. And on fb Doreen is engaged to Leon le.. :(
And i continue wit my shows.. Now 9+ le, i shd reli try to slp abit.. FORCE MYSELF TO SLEEP!! haha.. My mind is filled wit Doreen, Kelly.. Kelly, Doreen.. Doreen, Kelly.. Kelly, Doreen.. lolx.. But of course still got my frens, my buddies, my niang, my love & my pts.. hehe.. LOVE ALL of u who see dis!! ♥♥♥

泳兒, 林峯 - 《明天以后》

2010 hearing from Faith 11th entry

泳兒, 林峯 - 《明天以后》

在你的记忆里面有一个我
在你最痛苦的时候陪你渡过
难过过了 天晴朗了 我就走

你拯救我的寂寞 我的痛 我的梦
在你的面前 我不必保留
还来不及对你说 迟到的我的心动

你的好 你的坏
我的脾气你最懂
我不要你来心疼我
(我不要你离开我)
明天的以后 我们会懂 失恋的挫折让人变更成熟

我对你感觉胜过爱情
因为有你 给我勇气 给我
用不完的运气
其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心让你伤心
(我不怕会伤心)

对不起 我对你 再好再亲密都不能在一起
最后看你在别人怀里
有天我会找到我的唯一
(我并不是你的唯一)
还微笑祝福你

你拯救我的寂寞 我的痛 我的梦
在你的面前 我不必保留
我从来没对你说 压抑的我的心动

我的好 我的坏 我的脾气你最懂
我不要你来心疼我
明天的以后 我们会懂 失恋的挫折让人变更成熟

我对你感觉胜过爱情
因为有你 给我勇气 给我
用不完的运气
其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心让你伤心
(我不怕会伤心)

对不起 我对你 再好再亲密都不能在一起
最后看你在别人怀里
有天我会找到我的唯一
(我并不是你的唯一)
还微笑祝福你

Oh... 爱情总让人折磨
(Oh... Oh... Oh...)
所以我们才选择
做比情人更好的朋友

我对你感觉胜过爱情
因为有你 给我勇气 给我
用不完的运气
其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心让你伤心
(我不怕会伤心)

对不起 我对你 再好再亲密都不能在一起
最后看你在别人怀里
有天我会找到我的唯一
(我并不是你的唯一)
还微笑祝福你

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Dis song makes me tink of HuiBin, Doreen & Kelly..
Recently i have been listening to dis song alot.. Every word in dis song is like so meaningful to me.. Especially dis line, 对不起 我对你 再好再亲密都不能在一起 最后看你在别人怀里.. It's like totally how i feel.. OMG, my life is like so messed up.. My mind juz got so much things to tink abt.. Basically FML, TTM!! I'm juz putting myself from one love shit to another.. FAITH, WEN CAN U STOP BANGING WALL??